Spent the evening watching a truly inspiring story.
Then I stuffed my face with Prawn Cocktail crisps.
But the thing that got me was I was surprised how similar I was to one of the leading ladies in this true inspired story that had me mesmerized for just over two hours tonight.
Your wondering exactly what this could possibly be . Had I watched a film about fat red heads tonight. NO . But someone who didn't normally complete a project and gave up before completion.
That was me and probably still will be if I don't get my act together.
So here it is I'm going to give myself a year from now to follow my dream and lose the weight that is stopping me from really enjoying my life.
Sure I love food, I love junk food. I love Chocolate. Could I give it up ?
Do I really want to give it up?
Why do I still eat and eat and stop myself from being happy.
I want to do normal things that a slim forty one year old woman would do with her son.
I want to be able to buy clothes in any store not just one store.
I want to walk into a cafe or a restaurant or a bar and not be in a panic that the seats will have arm rests or be bolted down and my huge belly will refuse to fit between seat and the table top.
I want to fly on a plane and sit in a seat with room to spare.
Ive already lost four stone in weight this year. But after four months I started to lose interest in the diet.
I will have to think long and hard how I will stay motivated for this next year.
