Just read my first post again hahaha.

Well what can I say I wasn't very consistent with my diet or Blog back in 2009.
Thankfully I decided to do something about my weight in 2012. January the 3rd I weighed in at 27 stones and 7lbs. A huge Elephant. The biggest I have ever been. and so unhappy. Hardly able to walk. No friends. And a diet that would take me to a very early grave. So I had a plan it would take me at least two years to get to my ideal weight. Unless I screwed up and quit like I always do.
Guess what six months on July 4th 2012 and I am still losing weight. I can walk several miles and I now weigh in at 24 stones and 7lbs. I have exercised. Read diet magazines, downloaded and watched and exercised diet shows. Basically just kept motivated. I have cheated. I have eaten crap. But I didn't give up. I take each day as it comes and stay positive even on bad days. I hope by Christmas I will have come close to my first goal.  I want to be close to 20 stone by then. Here is hoping hard exercise and keeping healthy I get there.

Friday night and its all right.

Alone and not lonely surprisingly.

Spent the evening watching a truly inspiring story.

Then I stuffed my face with Prawn Cocktail crisps.

But the thing that got me was I was surprised how similar I was to one of the leading ladies in this true inspired story that had me mesmerized for just over two hours tonight.

Your wondering exactly what this could possibly be . Had I watched a film about fat red heads tonight. NO . But someone who didn't normally complete a project and gave up before completion.

That was me and probably still will be if I don't get my act together.

So here it is I'm going to give myself a year from now to follow my dream and lose the weight that is stopping me from really enjoying my life.

Sure I love food, I love junk food. I love Chocolate. Could I give it up ?

Do I really want to give it up?

Why do I still eat and eat and stop myself from being happy.

I want to do normal things that a slim forty one year old woman would do with her son.

I want to be able to buy clothes in any store not just one store.

I want to walk into a cafe or a restaurant or a bar and not be in a panic that the seats will have arm rests or be bolted down and my huge belly will refuse to fit between seat and the table top.

I want to fly on a plane and sit in a seat with room to spare.

Ive already lost four stone in weight this year. But after four months I started to lose interest in the diet.

I will have to think long and hard how I will stay motivated for this next year.